|
What do YOU want?
You all have something you want, as I do.. and it is there inside you... something so magnificent that at times it is almost impossible to contemplate the potential of being who you are.. at your best..
And there will be those people and memories and beliefs that will try to stop you. Beware!
Bonnie came on my course a couple of years ago. She's 27. Her first concrete memory of dipping into 'something more' was a meditation course run in South Africa where she comes from. That was 5 years ago.
She also did NLP training and has just come back from five months travelling and also attending different courses. She's on a quest.
We walked to the wild park I talk of so much. She was in the position of not knowing what to do... She'd come back infused with even more thoughts of something out there for her.
Bonnie used to be a research analyst. She researches things. But she's also determined and aware of her own messages.. yet at times she sinks back into the old ways.
She thinks she has to find a 'thing to be doing ' 'homeopathy' 'yoga teacher' all these had passed her mind and she researched and found out about it.. and yet something was not sitting right with her.
In this interaction Bonnie was not a paying client.. I'd asked her round because I'm fascinated by people's stories and I sensed that she was emerging more and more... and I felt that it would in some way be an equally fruitful encounter for me..
There was a point at which she accessed a particular body format, very aligned, and symmetrical and a way in which she moved her arms.. and her voice went quiet and low and she slowed down.
Bonnie was often up in her head with ideas, thoughts, self criticism, doubts... etc... and when she gets excited she speeds up and her energy is hard to keep up with..
When I pointed this out to her and suggested that she needs to come down to earth sometimes.. and gave her a few ideas on how she might do this... she noticed how much calmer she felt about the future.
Bonnie is bright and she's what I call a microwaver. She's been following some path of learning and awareness for a few years.. and she's often just made a decision on the spur of the moment.
She came on my course because she couldn't get on the NLP course. She'd decided she thought that she'd not be able to do the NLP course as well. And then they called her and she had that spark of knowing and without having the money she signed up.
Within two days, her boss called her in and gave her a promotion and a raise! She had let go of the 'how do I do this' and said 'I am doing this' and lo and behold.
She's investigated body work and yoga teaching.. and she knows what's not for her - she showed me as much that she didn't want to do 'hands on'.
In the park she said to me raising her right hand with the fingers pointing to her mouth and then moving it outwards from her mouth.. 'I want to communicate'.
And in some way she is now, from that calm state, letting go of the concepts and ideas she's created from within the bounds of how she thinks life is, she has begun to have more of a wider sense of what is out there for her....
She has been to recruitment agencies to get work and said 'Of course I have to face reality and get work now'. For her work meant doing the old well paid work that she hated so much and quit to go travelling. Her rent is X and that was a guiding force. Another temptation to slip back into the old ways..
She's also come back into a group of friends, many of whom are saying 'Where's the 'old' Bonnie'. When she tries to talk about what she's experiencing they resist. They don't like the change in her because it's not how they know things to be and possibly because it may be opening stuff in them that they don't want to face.
She's stopped drinking and now is faced with friends who say 'what? not drinking.. you're not much fun' and the like. And she's saying, maybe these aren't the people I want to be around. And at the same time she glows when she talks of this one friend she's known for 23 years, most of her life, who is into all this.
HOW TO take the next steps to opening the door to blissful relationship and a life that works.... and be YOU, at YOUR BEST
These other friends are her threshold guardians.. they are there to test her resolve to follow what she knows deep inside, in her body, stored there like some untapped well.. is for her...
Last night when she left she had already opened up channels of possibility that she'd never even contemplated before. She didn't have to live where she was...she could do other kinds of work that were more relaxing, and follow up on more learning..
In fact she'd told me how handy her flat was for the city and how much night life and facilities there were around there.
When I reminded her that being next to the city was all about being close to the job she hated.. and why else would she want to go to the city.. and she made a face and then smiled and said 'no reason at all'.
Already she was shaking up 'what was' for 'what is possible..'
Bonnie had begun to experience life through different filters... She had begun to sort beyond her limitations..
I sense that Bonnie will find a path that for her is exquisitely tempting.. and that's because it's tailor made for who she is...
HOW TO take the next steps to opening the door to blissful relationship and a life that works.... and be YOU, at YOUR BEST
|
